target

driving to target to buy two new notebooks and some rubber cement because i made the brilliant decision to REorganize and condense the memories of my life into two categories: travels and writings. hopefully i can have everything i ever want to reference in two places rather than scattered into a million boxes and envelopes and half-finished "journals" that never get finished because something inside of me can't pass by a blank sketchbook or journal and not buy it...yeah. run-ons. it's going to be a long night.

on the way the most beautiful sky caught my attention. there's this cloud with a silver lining. not just silver, but white light. amazing. i never get tired of the sky, because it's never the same sky twice. something is always different.

one of my favorite songs came on: it's one of those songs that make my emotions fall prostrate. i get really quiet and start to take off my shoes. some college worship leader wrote it...not on google yet. i kind of like that it's not google-able, but i'm also frustrated that i have no way of getting all the lyrics. not all the words are audible as the guy sings them. the words i do get are awesome...

"death and silence bow to christ," he sings repetitively as the music builds, and finally a chorus of voices sing, loudly, "i'm alive, i've come back to reclaim my bride, and death itself has died." amazing.

of all inside of me that wants to be angry at god, i can't. not after that. not after remembering who he is.